Ok, so have you ever had those nights at a worship service- where you KNOW the pastor is speaking only to you? Like the Lord has given him the Word just for your benefit only? ha....
Well, that was tonight for me at the Flood, a church service here in town….
The title of the sermon was 'Obstacles to Joy'…. And it is kind of ironic because I was definitely having a pity party this afternoon- falling into a slump of depression… I feel like I have been robbed of my joy lately. Like feeling complacent & worthless in my ministry, feeling unloved, wishing things would happen that haven’t & wondering if they will in relationships with people…. & more than all of that- feeling separation from God because I haven’t spent the time with Him that I need to…. Basically feeling empty & spent & emotional. Heck, I even painted my nails dark yesterday… ha
Anyways, the message tonight was about how its ok to feel these things- as long as we bring them to God. We pour our hearts to Him. Let Him know how we feel-
because he understands what we’re going through. &
remember God’s faithfulness in our lives- be thankful. And rest in the fact that he LOVES us & directs His love to us in ways we sometimes don’t notice or see.
I’m normally a very joyful person- most people would describe me this way… but lately I haven’t felt it. Until tonight- remembering what it's like to THIRST after God like a deer thirsts for water… longing to be in His dwelling place so much so that seeking after Him produces uncontrollable JOY in my life. Joy that hopefully overflows onto others.
I have less than 3 weeks left here…but I am hopeful for these next few weeks. God is going to do some amazing things. He is faithful to do such. He is going to move in my church, in my youth, in me. He is going to reveal even more things about Himself to me… I’m going to learn some powerful things the next few weeks. And my relationships with others- are going to be strengthened. I know it. And I am joyful for the little bit of time I get to spend with these people here- never again will I be in this situation with these same people- so instead of withdrawing- like I was starting to- I will trust in Christ & make the most of my time left. Hold nothing back. Love with all I have. Be selfless. Serve beyond myself. Be USED by Christ. And laugh as often as possible:)
Lord- thanks for restoring to me the JOY of my salvation!!
I pray you do the same for those that actually read this thing…
Be filled with JOY:)